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Monday, February 16th, 2004
12:18 am	wierd lj ayaw mag post ng update. anyway, salamat ang sa mga nanuod ng paly kahit napanuod na nila, and tart, japs, i missed you both and thanks for making me feel extra special. don't wanna make this too long kasi baka masayang lang ulit, twice na nabubura ginagawa kong mga update. ang galing ni jobs and ama sumayaw. love you bros! Current Mood: sad Current Music: fall on me
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Tuesday, February 10th, 2004
10:38 pm	edit. hindi "hear"..sinong engot, diba? i meant i want to tear my HAIR out. sorry naman. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: sssssssshhhhhhhhhhhh!
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10:28 pm	kapalpakan. sorry naman, nagkalat ako ng todo. i disappointed a lot of people. including myself. sorry naman, mali pa ata spelling ko ng "disappoint". wala na akong masabi. i messed up big time. nakakahiya. naiirita ako sa sarili ko. frickin' a. then THEY watched. binulaga ako eh noh. ayun, akala ko handa na akong makita sila. hurts every time! parang ako pa yung na leleft out. saya ng ganito, nakakatuwang mabuhay. sana, diba, ayoko na. sa mga natarayan ko ngayon, pasensha, ayoko lang maging plastic. my life is crappy right now, kaya nagtataray ako nang hindi sinasasya. sorry naman. i want to tear my hear out. voices, shut the frick up!!! dagnabbit! ang ingay. Current Mood: disappointed Current Music: the voices in my head
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Sunday, February 8th, 2004
10:03 pm	gag me. of course he had his own version. hindi pwedeng mawala yun. how could i forget?? hay yen. good luck. hweh. itawa nalang natin ito. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha! hindi ba't kay saya mg buhay? sinong gaganahan niyan? ang saya talaga. Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: waiting in vain, ragged breaths.
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8:45 pm	oh let's smile and be happy. hayy. here we go again with the whole you-can't-force-people-to-care-but-you-can't-stop-yourself-from-caring issue. it's so hard! parang the way you feel is just...wrong. there's always a reason behind why who did what. ayun tuloy, you end up feeling bad for feeling the way you did. then you end up feeling guilty so you apologize...and end up with twice the pain or the dissapointment. then it just kind of piles up until you can't take any more...so you leave, fed up and oober sad. nakaka lungkot lang. speaking of sad... mom came over to the house today, thinking manang was home alone...boy was she wrong! papa was in the lanai. there they stood, less than 5 feet from each other. mom goes, "oh, danny, i'm sorry. i thought justine was home alone so i came to check on her." and my dad? parang hangin lang si mom. he turned around and walked away, upstairs ata. waw. how sweeet! yay. happy family. hurr. who sang "hold on"? ahh. good charlotte. saaad, ayaw nila ipapost yung lyrics sa internet. anyway. eto song courtesy of ivers. i love this, but i didn't know the title :)...now i do! FLY by Jars of Clay Be still let your hand melt into mine The part of me that breathes when you breathe is losing time I can't find the words to say I'll never say goodbye (Chorus) And I'll fly with you through the night So you know I'm not letting go, I'm not letting go Tears like rain fill up the sky Oh my love I'm not letting go I won't let you go I saw a host of silent angels Waiting on their own Knowing that all the promises of faith Come alive when you see home Hold still and let your hand melt into mine (Chorus) (Bridge) Shed your heart and your breath and your pain And fly...... Now you're alive (Chorus) I'm not letting go I won't let you go I'm not letting go I won't let you go this is what comes of too much internalization. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: ym sounds
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Wednesday, February 4th, 2004
10:13 pm	one of theses days, michelle branch I didn't notice But I didn't care I tried being honest but that lead me nowhere I watched the station Saw the bus pullin through and I don't mind sayin a part of me left with you Chorus: So one of these days I won't be afraid of staying with you I hope and I pray Waiting to find a way back to you Cause thats where i'm home Did I make you nervous? Did I ask for too much? Was I not deserving one second of your touch? Chorus: One of these days I won't be afraid of staying with you I hope and I pray Waiting to find a way back to you Cause thats where i'm home What would you do if I could have you? oh if I could I'd let you feel everything i'm thinkin Wouldn't that be nice? One of these days I won't be afraid of staying with you hmm. nice song. falling into sad mode....bawaaaaaaaal. gotta pull myself out of this funk, before i get stuck for good. moving on. sing galore nalang ako. i'm a freak-y banana :) hweh. ayun, kanta nalang ako ulit. Now I will tell you what I've done for you 50,000 tears I've cried Screaming, Deceiving, And bleeding for you And you still won't hear me ....Going Under.... Don't want your hand this time I'll save myself Maybe I'll wake up for once (wake up for once) Not tormented daily defeated by you Just when I thought I'd reach the bottom (Chorus) I'm...dying again I'm going under (going under) Drowning in you (drowning in you) I'm falling forever (falling forever) I've got to break through I'm...going under Blurring and stirring the truth and the lies (So I don't know what's real) (So I don't know what's real and what's not 2x) Always confusing the thoughts in my head So I can't trust myself anymore I'm...dying again I'm going under (going under) Drowning in you (drowning in you) I'm falling forever (falling forever) I've got to break through, I'm, so go on and scream Scream at me, so far away I won't be broken again I've got to breathe I can't keep going under I'm...dying again I'm going under (going under) Drowning in you (drowning in you) I'm falling forever (falling forever) I've got to break through, I'm, going under (going under) Going under (drowning in you) I'm going under can this not be a song of the selfish? can this be the song of someone who is only now finding out who she is, because she was never given a chance to learn about herself earlier? can this song, in this case, represent the feelings of a confused, messed up, 18 year old f**** (bawal daw gamitin e) who just now discovered she is on the brink of losing her sanity? can i stop exaggerating now? shut up, yen...just...sing... Let's go back Back to the beginning Back to when the earth, the sun, the stars all aligned 'Cause perfect didn't feel so perfect Trying to fit a square into a circle Was no life I defy CHORUS: Let the rain fall down And wake my dreams Let it wash away My sanity 'Cause I wanna feel the thunder I wanna scream Let the rain fall down I'm coming clean, I'm coming clean I'm shedding Shedding every color Trying to find a pigment of truth Beneath my skin 'Cause different Doesn't feel so different And going out is better Than always staying in Feel the wind Chorus I'm coming clean Let the rain fall Let the rain fall I'm coming clean Chorus Let's go back Back to the beginning yay. i love this song. :) astig lang for me :) thank God for everything that's happening. i know WE will get through this...not unscathed, but i know naman that God always provides us with more than we need always diba? He'll never leave us, and diba his strength is perfected in our weaknesses? basta hindi niya ako pababayaan. Chuck: hatakan na ito pataas, let's get me out of this rut! kaya to. family...you'll understand soon enough. love yous. Current Mood: crazy Current Music: ym chevers..ingay mehn
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Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004
9:28 pm	hurr. first things first. tin, ang galing nung re launch, excpet we were like headless chickens without you! ate mimzy (spelling?) was like, o, yen, assign na whoever's staying where, chuva ek ek. i was like, whaaat? pero no choice, i kind of took charge...he, sorry ria...kasi parang she was so aburrido na o there. but the sketches were hilarious, and the message/plans were/are beautiful, tapos astig yung singing chevers. rock on, chuck, coco and uh, marco ba yun? and the band and everyone there, of course! basta ang galing...tataas ng mga energy ng mga tao, you could feel the loooooove :) yayness. tin, salamat talaga, i hope i can be even more active :) how was your...immersion? sa lahat...i'm struggling right now, with, uh, myself? i guess this is one of the times in my life that i'm going to have to make some choices that will affect everything talaga...i just hope that walang judgement or anything; i really need you guys to back me up...pray for me please. this question goes out to whoever can answer it or kahit try lang...how do i know for sure that i am where God wants me to be? i mean, that i'm following His will and not my own, that i'm serving and gratifying him? tama ba? basta un. helping. tapos commandment bang dapat agad magpabaptize chevers? ano yun?? i'm oober confused right now... pasensha na kung wierd ako...basta sa lahat, thanks for being patient with me as always. family! brother bear na ito :) miss yous. Current Mood: confused Current Music: ym alert thingers.
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Thursday, January 29th, 2004
2:00 pm	can you say bored? tin, i got na the tags you sent...i'll make the reg form later ng onti...thanks sooo much for giving me the chance to be more active =) moving on to even more quiz results! You are going to Marry Josh Hartnett. He is really shy, but don't let that fool you. He is really outgoing and sweet with those he loves and will be loyal to them for the rest of his life. Congrats!! Which male celebrity are you going to marry? (now 12 (i just added more, and still more to come!)results that have pics!) brought to you by Quizilla * sis is going to kill me! hurr, isn't josh (yihee, feeling close) her latest dream guy - literally? You are naturally born with a gift, whether it be poetry, writing or song. You love beauty and creativity, and usually are highly intelligent. Others view you as mysterious and dreamy, yet also bold since you hold firm in your beliefs. What Type of Soul Do You Have ? brought to you by Quizilla * hmm. interesting. You are too innocent and sweet for your own good. Which Ultimate Beautiful Woman are You? brought to you by Quizilla * too innocent and sweet? gag me. You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people feel that they have known you their entire life. Many often open up to you for they view you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although people trust you, you have a hard time trusting them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled up inside, or display them very quietly. It is alright to open up every once in a while. Which kind of candy are you? brought to you by Quizilla * i want oreooooos! wala lang. Congratulations! You're a fuzzy navel!! What Drink Are You? brought to you by Quizilla *what the *ucks a fuzzy navel?? anyone?? You are guided by light. While all can be bad around you, you still stay calm and make things better. There aren't a lot of people in the world like you. (Rate my test) What force is your soul? brought to you by Quizilla * astiiig...sana true ito, noh?? =) Your Heart is Blue What Color is Your Heart? brought to you by Quizilla * nuff said. Birds Chirping: Sweet and mellow, you are the familiar and pleasant sound of birds chirping. You are very down to earth and love the outdoors. You show a love for simple things, like the quiet whisper of the wind and the crackling of the fire. You make people feel secure and are a great friend. (please rate my quiz) What Sound Are You?(now w/ pics) brought to you by Quizilla * aww...although i was rooting for laughter. o well...(towel!) can you sense how bored i am?? hurr. i'm stuck in a funk again, but it's nothing i can't get out of. i gave my 1% this morning, sumobra pa nga, umabot ng mga 3% ata. yayness! atleast i'm growing, getting somewhere in this spiritual walk i'm taking...i hope...God's guiding me naman so it's all a great banana =) snicker doodle! i missed you today! call me when you read this ha? mga anak, miss you both muchly also =( hope to be seeing you both soon. love yous! Current Mood: confused Current Music: hudson hawk on star movies
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Wednesday, January 28th, 2004
1:21 pm	hurrr. took so many quizzes. can you say bored?? hurr...tin! did you see the last one? that's what i was saying last night! *sniff* haha, saaad. sorry. ang wierd ko. decided to stay home today and spend time with myself. basta un. oh, tin, salamat sa lyrics and no, our philo's in english, imbento ko lang ung pagninilay nilay =P about the last quiz result...it's really sad that sometimes there are things others have to go through alone. although you want to be there for them, you kindda just have to butt out. how frustrating... atleast andyan lagi si God =) he rocks! mar, ivers, alala ko si renee (hee), "i feel, i know, i can." un lang. i'm going to go make nilay nilay some more. In the secret, In the quiet place in the stillness you are there In the secrest in the quiet hour I wait Only for you Cause i want to know you more Chorus I want to know you I want to hear your voice I want to know you more I want to touch you I want to see you face I want to know you more I am reaching for the highest goals That i might recive the prize Pressing onward Pushing every hinderance aside Out of my way Cause i want to know you more Chorus I want to know you I want to hear your voice I want to know you more I want to touch you I want to see you face I want to know you more Chorus x2 Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: fear factor on axn
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12:29 pm	hope i'm doing this right.. You are one of the few out there whose wings are truly ANGELIC. Selfless, powerful, and divine, you are one blessed with a certain cosmic grace. You are unequalled in peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of Light your wings are massive and a soft white or silver. Countless feathers grace them and radiate the light within you for all the world to see. You are a defender, protector, and caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver of the wrong, chances are you are taken advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often. But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in everyone and so this mistreatment does not make you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will try to help misguided souls find themselves and peace. However not all Angelics allow themselves to be gotten the better of - the Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting for the sake of Justice and protection of those less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever change - the world needs more people like you. *~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~* brought to you by Quizilla hand holding - you like to be in constant physical contact with your special someone but you don't want to take things too quickly. What Sign of Affection Are You? brought to you by Quizilla What Finding Nemo Character are You? brought to you by Quizilla Protector Fairy Please rate my quiz I worked really hard for this thanks Which Fairy are you?(for anyone many out comes) brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood: bored Current Music: ya-ya sisterhood on hbo
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Tuesday, January 27th, 2004
6:41 pm	engot. i am easily hurt, and easily feel taken for granted that some may think i tend to overreact but i DON'T; and these are the times that i am trying to be true to myself. Current Mood: creative Current Music: jama mumbling in front of the pc
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6:14 pm	this is me. i am a sinner. i still become jealous over trivial things, and cry at the drop of a hat. things that may seem teeny to you, may be everything to me. i keep my feelings within, shielding myself from possible rejection and ridicule. my insecurities almost always get the best of me, and i am affected more by insults than by compliments. i am easily hurt, and easily feel taken for granted that some may think i tend to overreact but i'm not; and these are the times that i am trying to be true to myself. i fear that one day everyone i love will leave (except God, of course), and i will be left alone. this is who i am. ito ang epekto ng philo sa akin. hurr. ikalawang lebel ng pag-ninilaynilay (a.k.a. secondary reflection). haha. ewan. song posting time! never let go (josh groban) i can't understand it the search for an answer is met with a darker day and we've been handed these moments forever but i'm reassured there's another way you don't have to close your eyes there is room for love again ease the pain to realize all that love can be forced apart by tine and sand take a step and take my hand and don't let it go never let go broken, once connected we were so strong and blessed in a simple way so don't let me go it alone turn your head up to the sky nothing down below but me face the truth to realize all that we could be torn apart by rage and fear hold on to what brought you here don't let it go never let go nice. i love the lyrics. am i a masochist? i love hurtful songs! freak-o. moving on, family! i really need your helping. if you're all free on monday, could we have a semi-photoshoot for my death paper? please?? only if you can make it. oh, and when are we watching brother bearrrrrr? i'm excited!!! hee. tin or chuck or whoever knows the song "in the secret", pa send ng lyrics! thankies! Current Mood: creative Current Music: jama mumbling in front of the pc
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Saturday, January 10th, 2004
11:39 am	short stories...=) our internet's being wierd. i was supposed to update like, two days ago but i got disconnected (sorry tin) and i couldn't get back online. saad. moving on. things i learned in the past few days: commute from school to sis' house!! yayness!! i took two jeeps and a trike...of course it was really obvious that i had no idea what i was doing. haha, i was todo smiling at everyone, halatang di sanay. i also learned that one of the most overwhelming feelings in the world is to have the person you love love you back...we studied this in philosophy. my prof, sir motilla, totally rocks by the way. =) hmm. ooh, and in peace education we watched this film called "the impossible dream". it was parang this mime animation thing, showing the typical day of a family. parang the mom would do all the work, aided only by her daughter, while the dad and the brother would just bum around. parang ganun. tapos in the end the mom had a dream that her husband and son were helping out in the household. that would be the impossible dream. haha. anyway, after the film our prof (who is ALWAYS smiling) told us how her home as a child used to be like that but now her brothers are married and their wives taught them how to help out at home, like do the marketing and the cooking and stuff. so, i learned also that we can educate men...gender equality and all that. =) tamad to comment on lj's...topak parin kasi account ko. tin, i'm oooober happy for you guys, that you finally got Hugo. my bro says he really does look like a Hugo (i showed him the pics from your lj)! hee. can't wait to go and see him. chucks, congratulations on your math long test! you rock! =) before i go have lunch, i'll post another song. =) oh, and for the record, i really like it, hindi ako nagpaparinig or anything. Snow On The Sahara by Anggun Only tell me that you still want me here When you wander off out there To those hills of dust and hard winds that blow In that dry white ocean alone Lost out in the desert you are lost out in the desert But to stand with you in a ring of fire I'll forget the days gone by I'll protect your body and guard your soul From mirages in your sight Lost out in the desert If your hope scatter like the dust across your track I'll be the moon that shines on your path The sun may blind our eyes, I'll pray the skies above for snow to fall on the Sahara If that's the only place where you can leave your doubts I'll hold you up and be your way out And if we burn away, I'll pray the skies above for snow to fall on the Sahara Just a wish and I will cover your shoulders With veils of silk and gold When the shadows come and darken your heart Leaving you with regrets so cold Lost out in the desert If your hope scatter like the dust across your track I'll be the moon that shines on your path The sun may blind our eyes, I'll pray the skies above for snow to fall on the Sahara If that's the only place where you can leave your doubts I'll hold you up and be your way out And if we burn away, I'll pray the skies above for snow to fall on the Sahara Current Mood: hungry Current Music: silence, topak din audio ng laptop eh...saaad.
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Tuesday, January 6th, 2004
8:10 pm	open the eyes of my heart, Lord... i was depressed, then i was giddy, i got sick and then i felt loopy...trippy, HOPPY (haha, daughters), now i'm...subdued? dry, even. whoa. and feeling a bit feverish again. uh-oh. i love the sound of laughter. jama and jobim were laughing throughout dinner, and i cannot remember having such a pleasant meal with them. i am grateful. =) i guess by now i now better than to take things like that for granted... i am also grateful...for the sun, and the stars, and the moon...and for knowing God is with me always. oh. mom asked to borrow pdl. yayness. don't be fooled, i am happy. just can't show it right now but i am. really. *sigh* what is wrong with me? hmm. i think i'm even 'speaking' in straight english here. am i? yes, i am...oh. well. err...got more lyrics. but i won't post them all, not in this update anyway. just want to share this one, because...well, just because. and just for the record though i doubt anybody would care really, my face as i type is blank also. hmm. sucky sucky. Lying here with you Listening to the rain Smiling just to see The smile upon your face These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive These are the moments I'll remember all my life I found all I've waited for And I could not ask for more Looking in your eyes Seeing all I need Everything you are Is everything to me These are the moments I know heaven must exist These are the moments I know all I need is this I have all I've waited for And I could not ask for more Chorus: I could not ask for more than this time together I could not ask for more than this time with you Every prayer has been answered Every dream I have's come true Yeah right here in this moment Is right where I'm meant to be Here with you, Here with me These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive These are the moments, I'll remember all my life I've got all I've waited for... And I could not ask for more These are the moments, I thank God that I'm alive These are the moments, I'll remember all my life I've got all I've waited for... And I could not ask for more. thank YOU. =) Current Mood: blah Current Music: silence.
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12:35 pm	self pity: ahah. saaad. i got soo sick last night. both eyes hurt real bad. it was so horrid that i couldn't decide when they hurt more- when i had them opened or closed. tae. plus my cheeks were ooober red, and i threw up. a lot. yick. gross, gross. then papa came home and got mad at me for not telling him (?) that i felt bad...what was i doing daw the whole time? i told him i was researching, and he got madder, why was i not taking my health seriously?? labo. and then he does what he loves to do:he self medicated. for me. basta un. he gave me 2 ibuprofen caplets and 1 allegra pill. then he makes pabili claritin. is he trying to kill me?? shiet. buti nalang hindi lethal un pag pinagsabay (proof: i live!). then he told me to make latag in him room so i would get well (as if!) so i did...but i couldn't sleep, because 1. he had his frickin' as* television on full blast, 2. he kept lecturing me (over the noise from the t.v.) about God-knows-what and 3. it was tooo damn cold in his room! then when i was finally dozing off, he got up and threw the boxes of kinotakara at me. it's this japanese madicine gauze looking chevers that you plaster onto the soles of your feet at night, tapos when you wake up in the morning ta-daa, the toxins from your body are somehow now on the gauze thingies. it works kasi for my time of the month cramps, so papa now uses it for every other sickness i encounter. merde and poo. oh, and i can't even listen to music or move around, my head hurts parin. this headache has been my companion since yesterday afternoon. yahoo, yahoo... now, today, i am home alone, reading up on john locke and egypt. pathetic, but i miss my mom. and manang. if they were here they'd know what to do, they'd take care of me. ='( chucks, thanks...ooober thanks... Current Mood: rejected Current Music: laptop whirring, keyboard keys clacketing
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Monday, January 5th, 2004
5:42 pm	on the brink of insanity here......... my left eye is going to drive me nuts! kanina pa it was tearing up, and now i think it made hawa the other eye na also! (hahaha, mamar, epekto mo daw to! uptc na to, mehn!) but seriously, this sucks, big time. i'm researching on john locke as i update...i can't believe it's back to school tomorrow. ehh. i doubt i'll be getting any rest tonight...ngaragan blues! woohoo. o well (towel...haha lagman. labo. pwe.), atleast fun naman to make visual aids, right polo? haha, don't fret; i won't be asking for your help this time. new year na, i'm planning on being a bit more independent. (besides, this report is for a 7:30 class, so no way you could help pa. hee. aioo!) manang, kuya bjoy and ate kye heard me sing, and they all enthusiastically encouraged me to join S.I.A.M. .. any thuoghts? originally i thought it would be cool, coz then i could see manang tin more often, but then i realized that joining would mean being seen on television, singing in public in front of lots and lots of people and competing, which i definitely do not do. i dunno for sure if i'm scared of losing or being compared to whomever or it's stage fright...basta part of me wants to go and try it out, astig din naman...sayang yung opportunity to broaden whatever it is that gets broadened when you enter things like that. but then i heard sheryn and eric and christian (*sigh*), pati yung mga natalo...and i cannot sing like that. hehe. saaaad. speaking of sad...i cannot ride a bike, nor can i climb a tree! got stuck up ras' mango tree. wah. wala akong childhood. i have to learn. i have to!!!! haha, mababaliw ako dito. engy banana. ano ba ito sa tagalog? hmm...bobong saging. ngek, mas maganda pag english. wala lang. sentiness before signing off for now...if you close your eyes and not think that these are lines exchanged between two men, it's hella romantic. ANGEL Live in my house I'll be your shelter Just pay me back with one thousand kisses Be my lover and I'll cover you COLLINS Open your door I'll be your tenant Don't got much baggage to lay at your feet But sweet kisses I've got to spare I'll be there and I'll cover you BOTH I think they meant it When they said you can't buy love Now I know you can rent it A new lease you are my love on life Be my life Just slip me on I'll be your blanket Wherever whatever I'll be your coat ANGEL You'll be my king and I'll be your castle COLLINS No you'll be my queen And I'll be your moat BOTH I think they meant it When they said you can't buy love Now I know you can rent it A new lease you are my love on life all my life I've longed to discover Something as true as this is COLLINS So, with a thousand sweet kisses ANGEL (if you're cold and you're lonely) COLLINS I'll cover you With a thousand sweet kisses ANGEL (you've got one nickel only) COLLINS I'll cover you ANGEL With a thousand sweet kisses COLLINS (When you're worn out and tired) ANGEL I'll cover you With a thousand sweet kisses COLLINS (When you're heart has expired) ANGEL I'll cover you BOTH Oh, lover I'll cover you yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah Oh, lover I'll cover you *kilig* sigh, one thousand kisses...=) love you God! ehhe. un lang. Current Mood: crazy Current Music: i'll cover you, rent soundtrack. *sighsighsigh*
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Wednesday, December 31st, 2003
9:23 pm	happy new nyeer...continued mej bitin yung last entry ko... i forgot to announce that i hit a dude on a motor bike along ayala road...i was backing up (malas ko pag ganun for life, mehn...) and i made sure there were no chevers behind me, when this guy tries to get in between me and the other car...labo. basta, so i hit him...and he ran. egh. sucky sucky. all of a sudden my cousins are all here...have to go. kuya dicklet, kambal kong ate kye...mahal ko kyo. :) Current Mood: full Current Music: breathe
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8:39 pm	happy new year! i'm at ritz in mica's room, haha. just wanted to update before the year ends. things to be thankful for this year: good friends, great blockies, definite improvement in the household, and of course, the much awaited acceptance of Christ. and i mean total surrender, mehn! astig tong taong to. new year's resolutions: - smile more often - be more patient - study harderrrrr! - learn to appreciate the little things that are in fact, not so little - love more, worry less - strengthen my personal relationship with Him meron pa ba? haha, that's it for now i guess. have to go join them for dinner. so much for not getting fat! Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: me against the music
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Wednesday, December 24th, 2003
12:06 pm	merry CHRISTmas!!!!!! i'm oooboer happy, and ooober energized! despite the fact that i drove all the way from caloocan to arcadia (near galle) to magallanes vilage in metro manila-last minute-christams-shopping-traffic, i still want to hop into the car, pick some berX up and go home hopping!!! (wow, i'm so hOppy!!!) :D pasko na, pasko na!!!!! i want to go see each and every one of my berX FAMILY!!!!! i miss them already!!!! and my hypernosity is going to drive the people here at home insane!!!! :D happy birthday, JESUS!!!! love You! :) *kilig, kilig* don't ask why, i don't think i'd be able to answer!!!!! :D missed you, crew!!!!!! glad we were able to be together for Christmas!!!! :D Chucks, still thinking about that pet name ;) missed you!!! :) benneeeeeeeeeeeeee! thanks for your post....MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! God bless you and your family :) miss you muchly, hope to be able to hear your voice man lang!!! :) to my two gorgeous sisters and two beautiful daughters (who were indeed stunning the other night), to my snickerdoodle, my dear, my "honey" (jp wag mo kong harangan ng coke, lambing lang 'to), my tart, my *ehem* di (hahaha, jologggg!), and my bestest friend in the whole worrrld, merry merry merry Christmas!!!!!!! :D love you all!!!! i wouldn't be the way i am now if not for you. :) huuuuuuuuuuuuugssssssssssssssssss and kisssssssssessssssssssss to all!!!!!! Current Mood: giddy Current Music: if i didn't love you-labo, pero un. :D
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Wednesday, December 17th, 2003
12:04 am	just when you think things can't get worse... they do. wahweh. first off, to the Araneta brood...my deepest and most sincere condolences. chucks, i know this is something you must go through with your fam, but i'll always be right here. always... advice lang sa mga tao, know what you want sana before moving in for the kill. hindi lahat ng pagkakamali madaling kalimutan at patawarin. but turo nga ni Jesus, we must learn to forgive. kung tayo nga napapatawad ni God no matter how grave the sin, right? isa pa, uulitin ko pa ulit. i'd rather be the hurtee than the hurter. gets?? ayoko talaga ng ganito. i'm terribly sorry to those i've hurt kahit indirectly. i guess you have to be careful who you trust, who you choose to give your heart to and stuff. isn't it great though, knowing that if you put all your faith in Him, you can't go wrong? hayy...one of life's great wonders. :) gave me my first smile of the day. chuck, i'm sorry for being so kulit, but again, i'm right here waiting for you...just holler, okay? parang line sa kanta yun. err. kebbers. ay, berX, just to remind yous, on the 20th we have the ccf celebration at 3 p.m. fourth floor, i'm not sure of what building (malamang the old one), and then on the 22nd we have our much awaited dinner party, semi formal ha, in tart's home at 7:30 p.m. (mag announce daw ba?? loserr ko.) love yous, family! chuck, isa pa (oo na, makulit na ko) just came across this song...thought of you :) When you’re all alone And you need a light Someone to guide you Through the night Just remember That I am here To hold you close and dry your tears Ohh just when you thought you were falling You know I’ll always be right there When you’re all alone And you need a friend Someone to help you to the end When you need someone to catch you when you fall I’ll be there through it all Ohh just when you thought you were losing But you know I’ll always be right there And I’ll be there through the good times and the bad And we’ll be there for each other You’re the best friend I ever had Just when you thought you were falling You know I’ll always be right there Whenever you need me I’ll always be right there I’ll always be right there Current Mood: worried Current Music: i'll always be right there-michelle branch
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